it's been awhile since i've updated and loads have been going on. and you know, i have the tendency to ramble on.. (like now..) so anyhow, here's the recent ongoings in randomness:

1. tis' the season for breakups. 3 extremely close friends of mine are going through such a rough time now, you guys know who you are. and whatever it is, you have my unwavering 100% support. for the 2 of you, i wish i could be by your side during this period of difficult time but sadly circumstances don't permit such an arrangement. :( love you guys loads.

2. forces me to reconsider this whole issue of bgr. where do you draw the line at being a realist (sometimes love just ain't enough) and an idealist (love conquers everything)? on a scale of one to ten, one being realist and 10 being idealist, i'll rate myself a 2.5. a little extreme? perhaps. or maybe i just don't have confidence in myself. i know i haven't been looking for quite awhile.. it's been tough after two consecutive times where "the heart got blended" but who knows, maybe i'm ready. just maybe. but whatever it is, i am scared crapless, honestly. because the heart hasn't recovered fully.

3. my business history paper was due today. since 2 months ago, i have been working on sandalford winery, even going on-site to interview some chap (who proved to be less than useful). in the end, 70 hours before the 3k word paper was due, i made a ground-breaking decision - i had to change topic. simply because i have exhausted all possible resources and i just don't have sufficient info to write 2k words, let along 3k. this sparked off a mad rush on saturday night, researching online till the wee hours, bringing my printed readings to church, rushing off to the state library to research, spending sunday night reading and consolidating all info and then writing it on monday. what a crazy thing to do, considering the paper is worth 25% of my total grade. anyhow. i think i pulled it off.

4. monetary economics mid-sem was a flop. what can i say? considering my replies to the essay question "of course!" and "we have not covered this in class.". well, the marker did acknowledge the crappy humour though. the whole cohort did really badly, somehow and they had to scale the marks up by 10%. but even then, it didn't save my arse. initially i took it badly, but as my friends console, i was sick, on MC and going through one of the crappiest times in australia. nevertheless, i hate it. i don't like to study for something and then fail. that's why i have been saying for so long, maybe i just ain't cut for economics (not that my law is that fantastic).

5. the submission of the business history research paper means i am left with one more paper to write - the most dreaded monetary economics research paper, worth a whopping 20%. i say whopping because i am heavily dependent on it! this semester, i feel like some kind of half-past-six academic, having to write papers for law/economics each week. it's exhausting, mentally, physically and emotionally.

6. i am sick again! for like the umpteenth time. everyone is no stranger to rach whinging about sickness. this time, i know the source - i caught the flu from the person i had lunch with on friday. now, everyone told me not to go lunch with him specifically (it's not because he was sick) but rather because of some.. umm, past relations (no, he's not the ex-boyfriend). well, and now i have no idea how i caught the bug from him when we were sitting so far apart. i remember how he and i use to spread illnesses to one another, back and forth last year when we were study buddies then.

7. speaking of him, i see his look-alike so often now it's driving me a lil nuts. i just keep repeating to myself "rach, you don't wanna get burnt again.. this just spells TROUBLE." and its true, i don't want to, i'm just scared of playing with fire. i think i must look like some mad woman talking to myself.

8. my crapping housing problem still continues! i thought it will get better when crys got back.. but the problems just blew out of proportion. i can only pray it will resolve soon. it's taking a huge toll on crys and i. she's depressed and i'm confused, frustrated and insomniac. i can't wait to move back to the city!! i am just gonna miss my room, which has been my little haven, home away from home for 2 whole years. :(

9. markie bro is leaving for the UK in 2 days time! it's gonna be harsh for me because psychologically, i know he's so so so so much further than he already is. all i want him to do is to take excellent care because he has to come back for (and before!) me. and hopefully he has loadsa fun too.... have a safe trip yahs brobro. *muacks* wub wub. haha.

10. last week, when i was staying at the hotel, i was enjoying this live gig happening at the bar downstairs of my hotel. the duo were taking requests and i asked for david tao's katrina. somehow or another, the next thing i knew, i was up on stage, everyone cheering me to go on and sing. man, i was shaking. i have never sung in front of an audience with just the guit. i didn't even know the guitarist to familiarise myself with the song, key and his style of playing. utterly pertrified. but after the first stanza, things warmed up and we sung better together. the guitarist is an excellent harmonizer. awesome. by the end of the song, i was comfortable. which i thought is a very unusual thing for me because i don't like being in the spotlight. let along being scrutinised for my singing (and the funniest thing is i use to organise the school concerts when i was much younger because i was the guild vice-president and i do MC-ing for very special people's parties). i love acoustic settings but the problem is that its just the guit and you so if you sing offkey, thats it!! still, maybe i should consider gigging.

oh no, i still rambled!! arghhs...