everyone is just feeling so down.

people back home like jeff and caro. crys and i. all of us feeling just so crapped.

...... crys and i will be attending a healing session together tomorrow. it will do her plenty of good and hopefully our strained relationship some good. i wldn't say things are bitter between us, but it's just been so... strained. everyone is just so unhappy. esp crys.

i have a resolution. to be a better person. this resolution came about when a friend called someone else "monkey boy", someone she didn't even know, and i thought to myself, "its hurtful and downright rude to call someone you don't even know them." immediately, James chapter 3 popped into my mind - titled "the unruly tongue". how apt indeed. if anyone has experienced the wrath of my gap, it's xing's friend. so she knows what i am talking about. so far, i think i have progressed heaps from last time. but i have a long way more to go. much room for improvement!!

other than that, it's so saddening when you make the first step in establishing a friendship but there's no feedback. it's also disappointing. oh wells. but like what junior said "na de ji, fang de xia", direct translation 'being pick it up, put it down'. meaning, if you started something by picking it up, you better be able to drop it off and end it. something like that. i'll just listen to his wise words for now. i miss junior.

gonna let it burn.......