lesson of 2005: never learn to trust people too much because when they hurt you, they really do. through their actions, they stab, they twist, they draw flood, at the expense of your frail, weak heart.

before you think how naive i am to not learn this extremely painful lesson earlier. well. i thought i got it right this time. but i hadn't. not one bit. that's what is shattering me. only this time, it cuts right down to the dirty core. i don't even know who i am anymore. telling the truth no longer pays.

love no one but yourself. trust no one but yourself.

the warm heart hardens.