quick updates. don't think trusts went down too well either. Jem and i were in the same exam hall, which didn't help much either. reminded me of our 1st conversation ever, exactly a semester ago. when we both were doing our respective exams in the same hall, at the same time. it's just amazing how much things have changed.... in just one sem. peter creighton is one sly fox, throwing in one completely crapped up question that weren't covered in the syllabus (either that or i just wasn't 'in the zone' at all). if you're thinking "rach... it's just ONE silly question", well, think again. my exam comprises of only TWO questions and both of them collectively make up 75% of my total grade. *bangs head* why rachhh. why didn't you know the meaning of "trustees in bankruptcy? arghhhhh, i tell you why: because rach is a big fat dumbo. in all sense of the words.

friday night: tina's 'surprise' dinner which no longer was a surprise because some girl let slip the surprise. was super ticked with her and she ended up copping a lashing from me. nevertheless, the dinner went quite well, everyone had a good time socialising and i'd manage to have an awesome catch up with crys, my ex housemate whom i haven't seen or chatted to in ages. really good stuff.

right now am at lavina's crashing. been doing so for the past odd week or so. lavina is mimi's housemate whom i've gotten to know recently. very cool chick. a year younger than me, ex-VJ girl, doing 1st year biomed science. went shopping with her on saturday... we went mad!!! and now my bank account is sucked dry. :( boo. she's such a generous, hardworking and GOD-fearing girl, praise God for such a lady of God. =) we have so much fun gao-siao-ing. haha. right now she is sound asleep and i am sprawled out on her very dirty floor, or what's left of it that is not covered by her stuff, trying to get some work done.

international trade.... my final paper. i just have zero mood to study. technically, given the ridiculous amount of time i have been given to study for this single paper, i should be ace-ing it. but no..... i have been a) celebrating tina's bday, b) going mad shopping with lav, c) going drinking at the brewery after church on sunday and d) following tina to cut hair in the city today. am i terrible or am i terrible. sighs. i got to focus. meeting T to study tmr.

someone asked me, "how can you still treat T so well?" my answer: "once a soft spot, always a soft spot." you can never take that soft spot that i have for him away from me. crys agreed with me. she completely comprehends what i mean by that. the same goes for jem. no one can take away what i feel for him. it's not about not being over both of them or what. both are very special to me and both hold very dear places in my heart... and will always do. *sad smile* that's how it is. i don't quite remember anyone else significant in my "love life" so far that quite match up to these 2 fine guys. jem jem jem. why do things feel so right but yet it's so wrong?? bahh. let the thoughts burn.

for now, i feel like burning my texts.