i don't think i have felt as much pain, hurt and disappointment as i did today. not since my best friend's death.

i don't think i have cried as hard as this before.

i don't wish to blog about the details. lest people accuse me of being attention seeking. apparently, its attention-seeking enough for me to say how sad i am. i cannot even be real.

up to this point in time, i thought my biggest disappointment was fucktard. once again, i have been proven wrong.