really tired. only managed to crawl into bed at arnd 4ish in the morning, but cldn't sleep till past 5am. i had to drag myself out of bed at 9am to meet xing to go ikea. we had swedish meatballs! =) walked around ikea looking for christmas presents ideas. i've got a rough idea what i'll be getting from there. then we trooped down to the gym, for rach to implement her supergirl rach system. unfortunately, i busted my knee when i was on the treadmill. this time is no shitting joke. i busted it big time. the pain was pretty unbearable [and i have quite a high level threshold for pain]. but i persevered. i was pretty determined to do good today. i didn't manage to accomplish what i'd set out to do, but i came close enough. it's good enough for me, esp since my right knee was in pain and the blister at the back of my right ankle was bleeding.

after that, xing and i headed to the boardwalk for dinner. had casesar salad and beef hor fun. the caesar salad is really dodgy - not the original type of dressing. but it's ok. was really full and sat down to chat with xing. she saw herself out of keppel arnd 6.30 and i started to do my notes. worked on it but was really sleepie. was suppose to meet mark at the lib to do some studying but in the end he went to the gym because his friend joined him, some pretty boy. yeahh. so i decided not to hang arnd anymore and went home. brave rach insisted on walking out of keppel by herself despite the immense pain that shoots up the leg when she is bends her knee. but she walked out =). i'm extremely shagged but i've polished off a bowl of cereal to supply my energy to press on further with my notes making.

one last thing to add. i met her today at keppel. twice. after not seeing her for close to almost 5 years, before it all happened, seeing her brought memories to me. when i was with xing, it was just cautious chat.... while i don't know what was going through her head, mine - memories came flooding back. and as i was leaving the club, with mark nearby, i saw her again. part of me wanted to hug her so tightly. tell her i missed her. tell her i missed him anymore. but i lacked the guts. i lacked the courage, thinking i was going to crumble and cry my heart out. and make such a spectacle of myself in front of everyone. so i told her i'll see her around. as i was walking out of keppel and while travelling home.. i thought about her. i thought about him. and i thought about myself. maybe i'm not as strong as i think i am. as for mark, i wish him all the happiness.

it's work time soon.