Sunday, April 30, 2006

i am really tired.

it's either i haven't slept well or i haven't slept.

i thought i could chiong and mug business history at full force yesterday. but i was running a fever and the most awful migrain which left me wringing in pain. a nap and pill-popping were inevitable. in addition, the property assignment, which i left half undone the night before because i was stuck, drove me crazy and up the wall. hours of discussion with kiasu and chadd amounted to peanuts and i was left just as confused and clueless.

by 1am, the panadol extra had stopped working and and me taking the 2nd round of it proved ineffective. so i was left writing my paper in pain. i told xing then i didn't care anymore. i had 4 possible options, no matter whether each of them seem just as likely, i am going to pick one and just continue from there. that's what i did. maybe you can say it's like half-hearted but i genuinely believe i had exhausted all my options and each one led to a dead end. i just had to move on or i cannot get on with my studying of the exams.

for 6 solid hours non-stop, i worked frantically to finish the assignment. finally at 6.45am when the sky is all bright and the annoying birds chirping, i called it a wrap. i think by that point in time, my brain had passed the stage of pain and exhaustion and i was fully alert. going to bed at 7am, i couldn't sleep till 8.30! nevertheless, i got to wake up and face my books today. yesterday was a joke when it came to mugging. today, it's as serious as russion roulette.

Saturday, April 22, 2006

when i saw you on msn today, my heart danced with joy.

it's been weeks since i've last chatted with you and i have been thinking about you a great deal. missing those little chats.

you asked me how i was and i told you i have been well, busy but well.

you asked me why is it i keep having photos of mark and myself as my display picture, as if i didn't have a boyfriend.

i simply replied, that's because i don't have a boyfriend and am not looking for one. i asked you how you were doing and if you were attached.

you said "i'm dating a girl now, for the first time in years" and went offline.

my dreams shattered.

i never thought i was going to be the one who would change you, though my friends told me if you were really worth it, i should give it all i got and fight.

you were every bit worth it and more but i didn't want to fight, because i was scared. scared you would choose a guy over me.

but now i know. the intense pain doesn't stem from choosing another guy, but changing for another girl. another girl which isn't me.

tears are streaming down my face. i didn't imagine i would be as heartbroken as this.

why didn't you ask me why i wasn't looking for a boyfriend? i would have told you.

i would have told you that's because
i found the imperfect guy who is perfect for me in you.

Friday, April 21, 2006

within a blink of an eye its already friday! *shrieks* and i haven't got anything accomplished. *faints*

these few days, though i'd thought it to be low key, ended up drama. but some reason, i cannot explain to peopl on my public blogg, so come ask me if you may and i'll share the bits with you. but plagued with such horrors isn't something i want to be stuck with, so i've been leading a rather paranoid life.

anyways. 2nd sleepless night in a row. i realise i miss the bed/night chats alot more than i thought. need to catch some good sleep tonight. which reminds me, last night i had 2 nightmares, so horrifying i woke up crying. firstly, i dream my dad was no longer around and was hysterical(that was what caused me to cry). next, i dream that somehow my constitutional law paper didn't send through the email and i got a big fat zero [CJ cedric saw me sending that out right?]. scary shiat. i hate nightmares, they screw my mind up quite badly honestly.

today, out of the blue, i decided to go to new ah gong's caregroup for their meeting. funnily, due to a communication breakdown, i ended up at tina's caregroup instead. but it was good. i think minh and donna are the funniest and sweetest couple ever. poor new ah gong and i. we're not meant to meet. (CJ cedric) thinks he'll be good for me. *hmph. one for the record for putting me in brackets on your blogg!!* yesss, i'm a small gas ghost.

speaking of (potential) guys, some daring soul came up to me and asked me today "are you married or engaged?" cooly, i said "neither." so he, getting more daring probed "so why the ring on the forth finger?" i have to say, i dislike people being kpo, but then again, i got to give him credit coz i hate people talking about me behind my back even more. got something, ask me. so yes, as much as i was like "(*&^%$^" i really didn't mind as much. as i told ceddy, 2 reasons why i wear it.

1. the person who gave it to me is extremely extremely extremely dear to me. so a gift as such is definitely worth wearing on such a finger, especially since it fits best there.

2. i guess i'm just not looking right now. so appearing taken is extremely convenient, not to mention useful. i am not looking for any potential partner because i don't think anyone can sweep me off my feet. not anyone straight anyways. so i'll just float around for a lil while. who knows... who knows. someone (straight) better prove me wrong.

yeahs. so i explained to him along those lines. and he was deep in thought for a while before he said "it's a pity." i replied "ahhhh. maybe it is such a pity to shut out those guys. but for now, i don't see it that way. and neither do i have guys knocking at my doors so it doesn't matter anyways." haha, but brobro said something true - no one would because they see the ring and back off. but really, do i care now? no. i will only care if it was *him.

Thursday, April 20, 2006


brilliant sunshine, cloudless skies and an abso-freaking-lutly chilly breeze. it's all very pretty right. =) cottlesloe beach.

more stunning views from cottlesloe beach. i love picture perfect shots of scenary. that dot of blurness in the photo is the result of the waves splashing against the rocks and then on me.

CJ cedric and i @ matilda bay and then the airport for his departure. we were frozen at matilda bay! but the scenary is absolutely stunning. especially when you can see the city skyline in the distance in the bottom left peekcher.

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

why is there a pain in my heart?
a pain i cannot express in words.
a pain that shldn't even be there.

i don't want to go back to those lonely nights.
the nights that i lie awake thinking
and missing.

missing the physicality of someone being there for me.
watching me mess up.
laughing with me
laughing at me.

no, i don't want to go back to those lonely nights.
why is there a pain in my heart?
4 days passed too soon. let me try recapping the events and then will post pictures up once i finish editing them.

saturday
went to pick court jester (CJ) cedric from the domestic airport. given that i have never been there, i got lost waiting at the wrong terminal. for a moment i panicked, thinking i got the time/place mixed up. but all was good, panick was uncalled for and i finally manage to locate him. we cabbed back, dropped the stuff before heading out to the city to walk arnd. we manage to catch basic instinct 2 and damn! sharon stone's breasts are like how fake? nevertheless, the storyline was engaging but a lil mind boggling. we then proceed to have dinner at valentino's in northbridge before club hopping abit - mustang bar, the court, paramount and varga lounge. headed back really early because all were tired and mimi had a headache. CJ cedric and i ended up chatting till like 3am.

sunday
dragged him out of bed and to church. we then proceeded for lunch with tina, angelina, liling, nydia, adrian and ______ . [i cannot remember chinese names for nuts!] went not too badly. cedric and i came back and we knocked out completely from 2pm onwards. i got out of bed arnd 5pm to pick up on my assignment from where i last left off. cedric slept till 7ish. then we went dinner with tina at northbridge, some chinese restaurant, followed by bbt. man! i had cravings!!! we sat there chatting till really late and tina drove us to kings park where we took some wu-liao photos. it was dark but the view from the top was awesome! =) the wind was deadly too. our faces were frozen.

came back and rushed my assignment while cedric kept me company - watching desperate housewives and pink panther from the network. i finally finished my assignment at around 5ish, thoroughly exhausted and submitted it online

monday
got out of bed arnd 1plus. starving, we headed out to broadway for kebabs. then i insisted on taking cedric to cottesloe beach. the wind was, once again, deadly. but we trudged through the sad and the scenary was awesome. wait till you see the pictures! xing thinks they are definitely post-card worthy. we spotted this hottie at the beach. damn! he is f.i.n.e FINE. we were definitely liking what we were seeing. after heading back from the beach, we went to matilda bay for more walks. i thought it was nice to bring CJ cedric to check out the scenary. this is something you cannot really find in singapore.

at night, we met up with jo and je, our friends from singapore. they are quite close to ceddy. went to this restaurant to eat. not too bad. then after that mimi, cedric and i went to burswood. i have to say this is like one of the 3 times i have been there. we had quite alot of fun there but it wore poor cedric and i out completely. cabbed back from burswood and i told cedric to shower first. by the time i got out, he was already fast asleep.

tuesday
i ended up oversleeping. we had a lazy brunch at the walk @ subi. the snapper and penne was nice. but too bad my face was quite black, sorry ced. my appetite has been quite bad lately too since my 2 wisdom teeth erupted a few days ago. the pain was quite unbearable, particularly today. i had to resort to painkillers when i got back from brunch. after that, we left for the airport where i hung with him until he went into the gates. i was awfully sad.

overall
i really enjoyed the time cedric was here. it was like he was bringing me a piece of singapore to perth. where i could laugh and chat and laugh and chat with the pple i click well with, if you guys know what i mean. he sort of represents the bunch of pple i have come to love and respect so much. i really valued the company at night, and those night/bed talks. mark knows what i mean. i tell him repeatedly its the lonely nights that gets to me - which is why i resort to staying up online till i am thoroughly exhausted before going to bed. so i won't need to lie in bed thinking and feeling sad. when ced around, there was company.

and if anything, this brief visit from cedric did bring us closer in a sense. although towards the end i think there wasn't much left to be said, but it was good companionship and sharing. definitely this is the highlight of the semester, so far.

thanks for coming down cedric. you have no idea how much that meant to me. =) gonna miss you heaps... *hugs*

Monday, April 17, 2006


my primary school cousin... playing arcade with his bed hair. =)

Friday, April 14, 2006

yesterday and today were really low key. low key is good, doesn't give xing any heart attacks. haha. after class at 12pm yesterday, i gave G a ring to sing a sexy happy birthday song only to hear a sleepy voice on the other line. the birthday boy wasn't even up! nevertheless, we had our usual uber hilarious chat. and how time flies when you're talking to someone so dear.. =) we had so much laughs. G is upset that ceddy didn't tell him he was coming to visit me. haha. tsktsk. anyways i came home, cooked and eat lunch and took a "nap". what was intended to be a 2 hour nap dragged on for 4 hours! dang! i wanted to go subi coles to stock up on food. but being the lazy pigg i am, i settled for dewsons.

bought a bucket load of instant mee from kongs (oriental supermarker) and then proceeded to kongs. i am just so silly. i was thinking "oh... the shops will be closed from friday till monday so i better stock up, enough for 2 pple" so instead of taking the usual basket-holder on wheels, i took the trolley. yeah, the huge one. and i was picking out veges, fresh meat, crumbed fish, juice, toilet rolls and blah. and heaved everything to the check out counter.... only to see a sign that says "we are open all through the easter break." dots. i wanted to bang my head. i had to lugg everything back and geez, even though i stay a mere 2 minute walk from my house, it felt like the longer trek in my life. when i was fumbling for my keys outside my house, all i could think was "how i wish i had a guy with me to share the load with." but stopped at thinking that. refuse to allow myself to wallow in self pity. came home, unloaded, cook a huge dinner and then bummed online. slept at 12.

woke up today bright and early at 8 to do my sheets. i had a huge day ahead of me today. spent a long time chatting with xing, love that girl. we always have laughs going on and it never fails to cheer me up. hung my sheets out to dry and then started cleaning the whole house. yep, the whole house. how my back and neck aches now. i know i don't have a very big house, it's just a tiny lil town house but still, its a crapload of work when the guy housemate does not lift a finger. a nasty episode with him left me seething in anger but i shan't go into details here or i might just lose it again.

so i spent the whole arvo, evening and night cleaning and cooking dinner. invited a couple friends over for dinner, something i prepared from scratch - braised chinese cabbage with hei-bi, seafood omelette and steamed chicken in glutinous wine sauce. i guess it went ok but the seafood omelette was a lil bland. watched the telly, ate ice cream and washed the toilet.

generally a very boring and low key day for me. really pleased with myself cleaned everyting and also rearrnaged my room in the process. looking forward to ceddy coming. got to re-write my constitutional paper because the first bit i did was all over the place. got to do that tonight. else i wldn't have time to do it tmr. =)

Thursday, April 13, 2006


rach --

[adjective]:

Sexually stunning



'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

tribute to my guy bestie. on this special day, just want to wish you a really happy birthday and hope you love this lil picture collage thing. it's memories of us captured. each and every picture has a different significance to our friendship. love you heaps always. don't forget about us. *muacks*

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

been really busy lately actually. trying to complete my readings for the constitutional paper so i can start writing on it asap before ceddy comes. my progress on my work has been greatly impaired by some unexpected crap thrown at me along the way. sighs! yeahs but i have been neglecting all my school work this week in a bid to finish the readings for constitutional law. sheesh. i am soooooooo backdated in everything.

really looking forward to ceddy coming. got to clean my room and public areas before he comes. do not expect the male housemate to lift finger. actually i'm really worried about ceddy coming. i feel really bad. ceddy is use to driving around in singapore and possibly in melb he is being driven around. given i don't drive, let alone have a car. i'll be heavily reliant on public transport. in addition, my friends who drive are really busy these couple weeks so i wldn't be asking them for help. so it's cabbing and bussing here and there. geez. cabbing will cost me a bomb! but i'm looking forward to him coming... i hope he will be able to adapt to the public transport for awhile. planning to take him to northbridge on saturday night and go the city on sunday. got to rush the remnants of my assignment on sunday evening before it's due for submission and will possibly take ceddy to the beach on monday? not too sure yet. depends on the weather too i guess.

i am really praying hard all goes well, coz i have this gut feeling nothing will. can only try to be the best host and time-manager i can be. *fingers crossed*

Monday, April 10, 2006

"If you closed your eyes, you won't gaze into sadness."
"If you forget the feeling of warmth, you won't feel pain."

I can't recall that gentle voice
In the depths of my mourning heart.
Someone is calling me from my forgetten past,
Asking me when I will take sorrow into my hands again.
At this moment that will never come twice,
You are all I can see.

A little ship glitters silently in the distant, alone.
Swept away by a torrent of grief, it disappears under the waves of my heart.
Why do I search the ocean depths aimlessly,
For the warmth that I should not have known.
Swaying with the ripples, the ship of life sails on.
Though no stars can be seen, it overcomes waves and advances on.

Beyond the darkness,
You are all I can see.
The waves that we saw are flowing towards serenity,
Flowing to the kindness that disappeared underwater.
I know that there's a future where we will love each other.
Until I take the sorrow back into my hands again,
At this moment that will never come twice,
You are all I can see.
while i am trying frantically to cut down on the number of to-do things on my unwritten list, the number of unforeseen shiats keep increasing on my "problems" list. tsk at myself. juggling the two is a pain in the ass but that's part and parcel of life isn't it. me screwing up equityy exam keeps floating around in my head. i wanna install a flush at the side of my head which allows me to flush away all those unpleasantries.

the message at church today was something really inspiring. actually i think it hit me in the core. i was already tired and subdued enough, but i guess what was being shared today touched me deeply. carrying burdens, letting go of those burdens... pride, setting aside pride and learning how to trust. i took away more than intended from today's message. in addition. the guy at church keeps reminding me of that not-so-distant past, person X. use to spend so much time hanging @ curtin uni with X. when the guy at church, initials JY, kept turning arnd, walls surrounding the past which i had carefully concealed came chipping away.... revealing glimpses of hurt, missing and love all to me at once. sometimes, i wish JY didn't remind me of X so much. i feel sorry for me, poor him probably thinks i am stalking him or something. i'm sure he's a nice guy but i definitely do not wish to be friends with him, not now... coz it is too painful. what can you say when you see the same eyes, same physique, same tan, same dress sense, same hat and same height? i might just call him the wrong name. boo.

constitutional paper. thats my next priority. before my court jester comes... he promise to do a prance for me with my jesters hat..... now, if only i can find it. haha. i need to complete as much as possible that major assignment. arghhhh!! oh, thanks to him for introducing me to shakira's "hips to lie" song. it's soooooooooo cute. haha. *muack muack* and to bestie: where are you?? i keep replaying the song you sang for me, such a major awww! *heart melts* it's nice. continue recording and send to me! hope to see you online soon.

Saturday, April 08, 2006

someone please K.I.L.L me.

i am going to break down any moment as i type this. ok, sorry to those who don't understand what i am typing. will try my best to break it down for you.

today i had my equity closed book exam. it's worth 50%. for the last 3 days, i have been cramming everything into my head. we were being tested on 4 doctrines
1. illegitimate pressure (IP)
2. undue influence (UI)
3. unconscionable dealing (UD)
4. the principle of yerkey v jones

i know you guys are like.. "what the eff if that". ok let me try to summarise this as layman as possible. IP is when X threatens B into signing a contract. UI is when X, under the influence of Y signs a contract which will benefit Z, the third party. UD arises when X has a special disadvantage (like retardation, poverty, illiteracy, age.. so on) and Y knows that disadvantaga and exploits it. the principle of Y v J is to protect wives who, under the influence of their husbands, sign agreements with 3rd parties.

our exam today was to read a case and critisize it. in the case, the judge found in favour of the defendant's counter-claim, that she was forced to sign the contract with the plaintiffs on the basis of undue influence and unconsionable dealing. the problem was, the judge was wrong. the crux of the case lay with illegitimate pressure. he misquoted the defintion of undue influence, citing the OLD definition of illegitimate pressure. i corrected him with the NEW definition of illegitimate pressure, BUT instead of saying IP, i said UI. and in my whole subsequent analysis, i critiqued that it was UI and UD - but that his approach was wrong, thats all.

the problem is, i had all this information in my head, i memorised every single shitting case in my reading list. but not once did i mention IP or Y v J. and this is what the whole case analysis centred around. the moment kiasu said "crescendo" [which is the precedent case for IP] - i went "SHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIITTTTTTTT".

there is no way i cld have redeemed myself in that analysis, because the whole thing was on the judge identifying the wrong doctrine and yet i was just adding on to his wrong identifications. what makes it so much worse is that, i KNEW everything there is to IP, the definitions and all. yet i could correct him on using the old definition when the new one is the presently upheld one. but i failed to correct myself in writing that it was for IP and not UI! what the hell was going through my head then i don't know. it is so clearly a case of IP but yet i still added on to UI and UD????? there is no way i can pass this exam. i want to commit suicide. not after i eat a full meal first.

did i mention this paper is worth 50%?
signs that rach is uber stressed/going crazyy
1. she starts singing wang lee hom's "kiss goodbye" really loudly in the bathroom, oblivious to something called "housemates".
2. she types "undue influence" instead of "unfair" in msn.
3. while watching a hiphop dance video while destressing, she thought the backdrop resembled a courtroom.
4. she finishes 1 250g bar of cadbury hazelnut choc + half a packet of family size kitkats + 1 200g bar of whittakes dark chocolate + 1.5L of pineapple juice.
5. she imagines her pee smells of coffee.
6. she wraps her wet hair in a towel and forgets about it till an hr later and her hair then resembles a mane.
7. even before the equityy exam is over, she is fretting about her constitutional paper.
8. the only thing she has laughed at in the past 3 days was the prostitutes case she read about.
9. she feels like she is going to explode anytime.
10. her current favourite words are "equitable", "unconscionable dealing", "illegitimate pressure" and "undue influence".

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

ever since my property law assignment submission, i have been slacking really hard. watching what is on the network.... surfing around the new portal i'd joined *wink* and busy coffee-ing with people. i even went on a shopping trip today at garbo with kiasu to buy my much needed toiletries, presents for people and so on. i know what pple will say... "go on, you deserve a break.. you are working so hard" but honestly, when an exam around the corner which i know nuts about.. plus tuts to be done, plus constitutional assignment? actually constitutional law assignment cldn't have come at a worse timing. it is due when ceddy is here. i don't want to be an even lousier host, considering i don't even drive here which is bad enough. now i got to write a paper when he is here? i wanna finish it before he comes but looking at the readings i have to do before even thinking about writing the paper.... i kinda doubt it. arghhhh.

sometimes i wonder why i am in such a position. you know..... for 2 weeks now, i have had awful pimple outbreaks. my migrains never disappear and my fever is on-off. i have been having sufficient sleep, but at the expense of everything else (forcing myself to get at least 6hrs per night). in addition. i am always grouchie and unsociable.. i don't even know what for now. i miss the old rach. sometimes i am scared i am evolving into kiasu, which is a nightmare. don't get me wrong. i love this girlie of mine.... but everything she utters is about law and work. and as you can see in all my blog entries... i'm frightfully getting to her stage, which is something i never want to be in - to be so caught up in work until you lsoe the distinction between work and social. where do you draw the line??

i remember i was the most horrid law student ever. i was lazy and lazy. you get the idea. in myf irst 2 years of law school, i had never ever ever finish reading a single case. somehow i scraped through, and alot of credit has to go to kiasu for her invaluable help. but no, i am not proud of it. i am actually ashamed. this year, i tried so hard to read... which yes, i did finish reading an entire case for the first time. but it's so hard keeping up coz there's just so much workload. so now, it seems like i am resigned to not reading again. it's just a lose-lose situation for me i guess. sometimes i don't even know what is required of me anymore. i am tired.... so tired.

and i tell you something. i know i am not doing the hardest course out there, but i do NOT appreciate people who are doing single degrees such as commerce or arts (no offence to them) coming up to me telling me "i am so stressed... you don't understand." or even "i understand your stress level" i am not looking down on them, everyone is entitled to their choice of courses. but comparing law and economics to a single degree like commerce is like comparing apples to oranges.

they aren't meant to be compared together. i respect the commerce/arts or whatever course students having their difficulties and all. but my level of difficulty, you won't know because you haven't been there. you complain you got 1 exam each week for 3 weeks. have you thought that law and economics facs always clash and i have 3 exams in one week? you see, why i don't bitch about my course to people like crys who does dentistry?? it's because i know the level of difficulty she faces is even worse than mine. wayy worse. the workload she has is even crazier, shittier or whatever. so to her, looking at me, she thinks i am fortunate than her.

so please be smart who you complain to, especially if you're a friend-hopper. let's quote sam tang "so we move from pon A to pon B, pon B to pon C, pon C to pon D..." [he's honkie with a super cute accent]. if you are reading this and this sounds familiar to you, YES I AM TALKING TO YOU. YOU know who YOU are. [i'm actually referring to only that one single person who gets on my nerves ALL the time]. so please YOU, just shut YOUR gap about how "busy" YOU are. sure i know you are..... but sorry, don't expect any sympathy from me coz you ain't getting any. don't tell me know how i feel or that i don't understand you. how can it be that you understand me yet i don't understand you. when we look at your workload and your timetable and then we look at mine, and it's definitely not you being busier than me.

as if i don't get enough shit from my own course, learn to bitch to the right person. that's all i am saying.

ok... i don't know how my entry evolved into such a post but then again, this has been something i've been dying to get off my chest for goodness-knows-how long. because she has been pissing me off over and over and over and over again and each time she does it, i just bloody ren. but the next time she ever attempts to pull this off on me again.. the "you don't understand how stressed i am" or/and "i understand your busy-ness". sorry man, you're in for shit with me. because there's so much i can tolerate. especially shit from you because it's something you love doing. so if you are reading this, firstly, what the hell are you doing on this blogsite, you shouldn't even be here. next, if you're here, good on you. saves me the breath of saying this to you.

Monday, April 03, 2006


we are familee!! the court jester, the prince, the princess and her knight!! love love.
i was like uber proud of myself for finally figuring out how to work angelfire and uploading music for my blogg. took me like a good 2 hours ok!! i know i know... smart people only take 15 mins to work it out. but yes, i'm computer illiterate. but i don't know why the silly song wldn't play now! it was working fine yesterday! dammit. grrrrrrrr. and the song is so apt for my blog - gregorian's "so sad". i honestly don't know why people cannot stand it. it's so........ therapeutic in a kinda tragic way. anyways i'll figure something out in regards to the uploaded song.

missed church yesterday. just had so much to do. silly property law assignment. it's like a case scenario and we're advise the potential claimants to the items in question. total pain in the arse. anyway. i finally submitted it at 5 pm. totally exhausted. i didn't attend my classes today because i was busy rushing all the last minute stuff. now i've got to catch up with ilectures for property law and i've got to do my monetary economics tut before going for a make up one. and did i mention i have a closed book, research-based 2hour equity (law) exam on saturday??? arghs!

actually i wondered for how long i can last without talking about work on my blogg. arghh.. okok. wednesday is prosh so classes are cancelled. it's like a yearly affair. so i'm thinking of heading down to garbo to pick out some stuff for some people. it would be nice.

oh yes!! and my darling won campus superstar! caro, xing and markk were like all my commentators fo the night.. it was awesome. i really want to watch him on tv badly but they don't stream it online. :( so i had to make do with reading what was going on online.. but good job guys, i really appreciate it. it was such a nail-biting frenzy - renfred was leading on votes and xing and i thought our darling was sooo doomed. we were ecstatic when zhiyang was announced the winner! he's sooo adorable!! and then next he had to compete against teresa, the winner from the female side. sheesh. we were sooooooooo scared. it's like, you come so far, you will want the winner's title so badly! so when he was announced the overall winner.... my heart just wanted to leap out of my body! he's a star! =) thank you to my dearies for being such sweethearts and telling me what was going on on ch8 for 2 plus hours!

gonna watch my latest episode of desperate housewives if time permits later on. hehe! and will post pictures up of joy's convo and coffee session when ANGELINA, JOY AND YEESIANG have sent me what is rightfully mine too *ahem*, thank you very much! haha!

Sunday, April 02, 2006


princess rach and her knight, sir jeff!! miss him so much. boo. i like this photo because we look so happy in it! too bad it's mobile phone night-mode quality. but thanks to brobro for this photo. love it!

Saturday, April 01, 2006

my dahhhling jeffie has jumped on the bandwagon. he's officially knighted as Sir Jeff - the knight in the shiny white car!!

so cute.

i love my threesome.

oops, did i just say that?
what a cloudy, chilled lazy saturday.

woke up feeling extremely sluggish @ arnd 11. bummed around downstairs taking brunch and watching some teenish chick flick on tv. i know i swore to myself i'll never bring my work station to the bed this year.. but yes, i'm sprawled on my bed, books all over and typing away on my laptop. i find that "doing work" on my bed promotes inefficiency, laziness, and procastination and induces sleep.

i was actually feeling really sick yesterday. i spent the whole day at kiasu's house helping her with her constitutional law paper and mostly discussing/writing our property law paper after my 12pm class. we then proceeded for dinner at around 7pm. however my stomach was aching up and i was experiencing sharp, excruciating pains. i barfed my dinner out at arnd 7ish. initially i was thinking maybe i shldn't go coffee with joyjoy and the rest because i was in so much pain. but crys wasn't going and it was actually coffee meant for the housemates so.... i thought i better go. dosed myself with stomach relief pills + painkillers and off i went arnd 11pm.

went to oriels. there was quite a big group of us.. we all came in sprinklings... the final tally was 8 - joy, angelina, tina, yeesiang, christian, jason, adrian and myself. first time meeting christian, this indo guy and jason, this really short guy. on my goodness. jason talks non-stop. he's just horrifying.. sheesh. i mean, and which guy, at like 23 or 24 years of age, have a curfew of arnd 11?? i know i'm really mean but i cracked up big time when i heard that. i remember teasing junior that time we went out when i asked him if he had a curfew (it was about 3am and we were sitting on the curb by the road) and he gave me this horrified look. maybe because junior doesn't seem very old to me thats why i failed to register he was indeed 23 to me. haha.

but damn! this jason guy is a classic. he sort of reminds me of a meaty chihwahwa (yes, i don't like small dogs) the chihwahwa that keeps yapping and yapping. but yeahs, generally we had so many good laughs and photos taken. so many unglam ones of me!! *pouts* now yeesiang, joy and angelina can blackmail me! boo!! and i think new ah kong has good dress sense. seen him at church and last night.. and yes, i like his dress sense. =)

we got home at arnd 2am.. and yeahs, i was like sooooooooooo shagged. i feel awfully guilty because i really wanted to do my property law assignment. sighs. i aim to finish my first draft by today so that i can edit and finetune it. before starting on ALL my other work tmr. i've just got soooooooooooooooooooooooooo much to do and next saturday, i have an equity law exam - 50% of my total grade, closed book and research-based! tell me how screwed can i get. i wish i can stop talking about work online for once... arghh! but i promise myself i need/want to be a better student this semester.

markk and i each have a new identity and it's cute. i know i never really thought of getting/seeking one but i guess it's quite perfect. prince charles ming is mark's idenity. it's funny because initially, he asked me to think of a name for him for some play and being lame as usual, i thought of charles ming because it's like "prince charming". so i thought it'll be cute in his play thingy. but yeahs... he actually adopted it as his new identity which is so cute. well and so now i'm known as princess rachh. which does brings back memories because that's what my dad affectionately calls me too. mark's so funny when he's drunk.... he was typing stuff like "i'm sad. so sad. coz my meimei is not around. i dunno what i will do if i don't have my meimei... i want my meimei." so lovable. i miss him too. boohoo.

dont know why. i've been thinking alot about *him lately. i haven't heard from *him in a couple weeks. i know *he went reservist but yeahs. haven't spoken to *him. sometimes i wonder how can an imperfect human, such as *him, be so perfect for me. perfect to the point that the one and only single major glitch isn't enough to stop me from walking out of *him. because i know i'll never find someone else like *him out there.